I Guess It’s Just A Silly Song About You & How I Lost You & Your Brown Eyes

Decided that I’m going to go out on Friday for a drink, because, other than needing one (I’m not an alcoholic but I seriously need to let my hair down after the pile of stress that’s fallen on my head lately), it’s going to be a late birthday drink. I plan on taking my new camera (who is called Jeremy after a character in a book that I’ve read) so I can snap some lovely photos of the pandemonium that will undoubtedly ensue. Besides, I rarely see people. I’m working on the recluse thing… but I guess I kind of like a bit of human contact once in a while.

‘I guess it’s just a silly song about how I loved you and how I lost you and your brown eyes…
Your brown eyes…’

This song makes me think of somebody but we’ll forego the usual tag as if he ever reads this it may make him feel self-important and that’s not what we want, is it? I was talking to a friend earlier and she mentioned a particular date. It took a moment for me to register quite why it had made me stop. Then I realised that it was because, last year, it was the date of the first foam party I went to. It was also the day before he dumped me. It’s branded on my brain, I guess. To be honest, though, I hadn’t really thought about it until my friend mentioned it. When she did it felt like getting hit over the head with something. I was suddenly peculiarly dizzy. It was probably just a moment of silliness.
I completed editing Chapter 7 of Dark Side of the Moon. It’s improved immensely. If I had some proper free time, then I would get on and start Chapter 8. I want to get it all edited and straightened out so that I can send it off to a literary agent. It’s urban fantasy, so I’ll need to research some urban fantasy agents first, but it would help to have the manuscript finished off to a higher standard before I even contemplate that again. I mean, I tried before but I had no idea what I was doing. If it hadn’t been for the introduction of twitter, I think I would have just blundered on regardless, so I think I owe Andrew McCluskey (NAL) a thank you, there, as he was the one who tried to get me to join and eventually succeeded… and now I have more followers than him in a shorter space of time – not that anyone is counting!
Anyway, yeah…
If I hadn’t joined twitter I wouldn’t have seen what the literary agents around the world were saying about the queries and submissions that they received. It’s opened my eyes a lot more to the world of seeking publication. There are so many helpful authors on there, too. In fact, what I would suggest to anyone seeking to submit like I am is the following:
  • Join twitter
  • Add authors & literary agents on there (you can usually find them by sifting through the lists of other authors & publishing houses or shops like Waterstones & WH Smith)
  • Get involved in some of the hash tag conversations such as #litchat and read hash tags such as #queryquotes – they will give you a better understanding.
  • Buy The Writers’ & Artists’ Yearbook and Writers’ Market
  • Then buy Wannabe A Writer – all three of these books are really informative from the technique of writing to contacting agents/publishers and their contact details to do so.

If you’re reading this and you’re trying to get an agent or a publisher then good luck and I hope that helped. It’s helped me so far – but I’m not signed yet… so I may still be wrong.

If you have any tips you’re willing to share with me then please feel free to comment!

Where: On my bed

Listening to: Brown Eyes – Lady GaGa

Tabs open: SD chatroom, Facebook

Programs open: Msn, Chrome, WMP, MSWord

(Lyrics in the title are from Brown Eyes by Lady GaGa)

Ethereal Entity #24

Where: On my bed

Listening to: Fireflies – Owl City

Tabs open: SD chatroom

Programs open: Msn, Chrome, WMP

I’ve neglected to carry on with my edit for a few days. Now that I have the whole lot of extracts on the site edited it feels like I can relax and do it at my own pace. Andrew is still helping me. I’ve been writing the 21st chapter of Book 3, instead. It’s involved a lot of trying to adequately explain vampire biology and genetics (yes, I do get this serious about my writing), which has been quite demanding as it’s a lot of information to take in, never mind the writing down. Getting it all in a sensible order was bad enough. I knew everything that needed to go in it but I’d just jotted it down haphazardly on a page. When it came to writing it down in one piece, I had to connect it in a logical fashion. It’s been hard going but I’m pretty satisfied with the resulting explanation. I’m hoping to catch hold of a friend who does biology so that I can have her read it and see whether she thinks it makes sense from that point of view. Stickler for detail.

Been having some weird dreams lately about my ex’s family. Quite a few have taken place at weddings, but there is a recurring theme. In the dreams, his parents are there and they’re really nice to me and keep trying to get me to talk to him & get in touch. But I’m always reluctant and afraid like I am IRL (in real life). I had one of these dreams last night (it was at a wedding this time and his mum, dad and sister were there even though the wedding was something to do with one of my cousins…) so when I woke up, I went back to sleep hoping that I’d dream something different and forget it… but instead I dreamt of going to the cinema to see Avatar. Of course, who’s on the row behind us but his family. So I left the audience and went upstairs to the guys running the show, knowing that they’d just try to convince me again. And I basically spent the rest of the dream hiding. I don’t know if it means something or if it’s just pointing to the fact that I’m a scaredy cat and that I’m not assertive, just as he said, but eugh. I don’t want to be followed by his family in my dreams. I have enough on my mind to warrant not being told to speak to him in my dreams. I’m supposed to be allowed to escape from things in my dreams.

Anyway…

In other news, I’ve added the Chrome extensions for Facebook and Twitter, which is good because Facebook keeps messing up on me for some unknown reason and the twitter plug-in has an added link shortener. I said I wouldn’t add them because, you know, everybody else was adding them… but I hold the right to be contrary if I want to be. =P The twitter one does kind of annoy me because it has a little colour change every five minutes to tell me someone has posted something new.

I’m also listening to Owl City. I’d seen loads of flair on Facebook about it (flair are like little badge things that you can collect – I mostly collect the ones with amusing slogans on) and I’d thought that I might have a listen, but I just never got around to it. A friend started listening lately and got hooked so I gave Owl City a go. Started listening to Fireflies. My immediate thoughts were that it was rubbish and I turned it onto something else, which was probably Norah Jones. Anyway, I figured I probably hadn’t given it enough of a chance so I had another listen later on. Unfortunately, it got stuck in my head. So yeah, I like it. I’m not too sure on some of the other songs in the same album, but maybe they’ll grow on me just like Fireflies did.

Ethereal Entity #6

Brand New – Jaws Theme Swimming

In a car outside,
We stalk the idle kind.
If you’re leaving,
Just let me know.
Tobacco and peppermint,
Dusting for fingerprints.
A film in her eyes from the glow.
Some rules are made
With all intentions to break and she
Defends it with a warped rationale.

And I’ve seen what happens to the
Wicked and
proud when they
Decide to try to take on
The throne for the crown.

And we learn as we age.
Wait for nothing
And
my body still aches.
And you take
‘Cause they give.
Though
I love you
And
my body it leaks like a sieve.

When it got old outside,
Smoke beneath the playground lights.
If you’re coming home,
Just let me know.
Sucking on your breath mint,
Dissected and stuck with pins.
A film in her eyes from the glow.

Concrete and water,
She’s looking for her daughter
At midnight in torrential downpour.
And everything I said about
How messed up your head is,
Were cut up and left in
Bits and pieces on the ground.

And we learn as we age.
Wait for nothing
And my body still
aches.
And you take
‘Cause they give.
Though I love you
And my body it
leaks like a sieve.

And we learn as we age.
Wait for nothing
And my body still aches.
And you take
‘Cause they give.
Though I love you
And my body it leaks like a sieve.

Take the picture from the wall
When you think that nothing matters.
Take the picture from the frame
And it’s a long ways to the floor.
Cut your finger on the edge
‘Cause it’s sharper than they told you.
Take a leap from out the window
‘Cause
it’s way too far to go through the door.

[instrumental]

And we learn as we age…
Wait for
nothing
And my body
still aches.
And
you take
‘Cause they
give.

Though
I love you
And my body it leaks like a sieve.