I don’t understand. Why does nobody tell the truth? Why don’t we all just speak our minds instead of hiding our true thoughts and feelings? If you want something then you go get it.
I figured this out in 2009. Not so long ago, I know, but at least it happened.
It may take me a long time to be sure on what I want or feel, but when I know that’s the truth of it I’ll go for it. I won’t give up, even if it means waiting for a very long time, because everyone deserves to be happy. And I would rather be happy and true to myself than a miserable liar.
If you’re not true to yourself then you’re just a fake. You’re just a liar, breeding more lies and misery. Because misery is what a lie makes, ultimately. At least with the truth you can come to terms with it eventually.
Because the truth will set you free.
And this train of thought was sparked by the picture below from tumblr. It just shows what people might be really thinking compared to what they say.
If people just told the truth there would be less hurt in the world. They should say what the really mean without hiding because they’re insecure or whatever.
Just step up. Live your life.
Stop dreaming and start working towards what you want.
My mum constantly has a go at me about getting a different job. She worries about me. She thinks that I need to do something so they don’t both die and I’m left all alone with nothing. But the thing is that right now, this is what I need to be. This is who I need to be, because I have a goal.
I have a plan.
I know what I want to be. I know who I want to be and I’m not going to compromise any more.
If I say I’m going to be a published author then that’s what I’m going to be. If I say I want to be a lollipop lady for now, then that’s what I’ll do. And if I say I love someone, then it will damn well never ever be a lie. I will mean every bit right down to my soul, because all of these things are a part of my soul.
All of these things are a part of who I bloody well am.
And I won’t pander to anyone else in these things. I won’t let anyone sway me from what I truly believe and truly feel.
I am not a mouse. I am not some shrinking violet that will forever do as she is told because other people think that I should. Because other people think that these things are best for me.
They are not me.
I am me.
And I know what is best for me, even if it turns out to be a mistake. At least then it will be my mistake and I will have enjoyed every damn minute of it.
And yeah. I confessed my feelings for a guy who can say nothing about his except that he misses me, but at least he knows my feelings. At least I’m not a coward. At least I know exactly how I feel and I’ve told it to exactly who matters.
And I didn’t say it to win him back. I didn’t make up a lie because I’m lonely. I said it because that’s the truth.
It’s my truth.
And I would never lie about something so beautiful and pure as that feeling.
So do whatever the hell you want to do in life, but make sure it is exactly that: what you want to do. Make sure it is your truth. And for gods sakes…
If you love someone. If you really truly do.
[This post was brought to you by ‘Becca on a rant. Also, the Nightgale post will be tomorrow or Saturday as I have been to busy to work on it. Sorry sorry sorry.]
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